It's 7 days away from World AIDS day. You would think it will be Christmas Day. No. But yes to me. I'm looking forward to it. To be able to talk about HIV/AIDS. This is like aday people suddenly wake up and say, "Oh, there is AIDS after all". Well that's fine. But I am gonna make the loudest noice. Let's get tested. Let's change our behaviour. I'm making sure friends become part of this movement. We need to break down this fear. What are we afraid of? Afraid to know if you are well or not? How can that be?
To this day I have a few committment and I hope it grows.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
IF MUSIC BE THE FOOD OF LIFE PLAY ON
I was driving to work sometime last week. A song 'Champagne Life' by Ne-Yo came on. Oooooh! Fabulous hit. Loved it instantly. I suddenly missed my fisrt job being a Technical Producer. I could listen to all types of music, any time. I love sound. I love being in a studio. It does something to my soul, heart beat. You name it. But I console myself that I can have it back. I wanna create shows, put them on the web, approach community radio stations. I get excited just thinking about it.
What would we do without music...without the beat, soothing melodies. I know for a fact I would be lost. It revives me. But hey, I feel so shamed that the first time I saw Ne-Yo. I was ashamed that I love mature music made by a young boy. I love Usher on stage. Now I am hooked again on Ne-Yo. Ooh. Maybe I missed a stage ..lol...ten years between 30 to 40. I'm trying to look around, wondering what have I done for those ten years. I feel like I was struggling so much I missed the music. I missed living. I missed life. I missed my rythm. Now I feel I have to pace. I'm rushing myself, rushing the time. I am hopping back and forth. Living in the moment and re-living what I missed.
It's not so bad. I am finding myself in the process. Maybe there is a reason all of this is happening right now. I can maturely enjoy my adult life...lol, nothing like tapping yourself on the back. One gain ... having a fabulous relationship with my son, my best friend. That's the greatest price I've ever received. I would never have known him like I do now. Our greatest connection, love for music.
So, yes, if music be our food of life play on. I can enjoy it with my son.
What would we do without music...without the beat, soothing melodies. I know for a fact I would be lost. It revives me. But hey, I feel so shamed that the first time I saw Ne-Yo. I was ashamed that I love mature music made by a young boy. I love Usher on stage. Now I am hooked again on Ne-Yo. Ooh. Maybe I missed a stage ..lol...ten years between 30 to 40. I'm trying to look around, wondering what have I done for those ten years. I feel like I was struggling so much I missed the music. I missed living. I missed life. I missed my rythm. Now I feel I have to pace. I'm rushing myself, rushing the time. I am hopping back and forth. Living in the moment and re-living what I missed.
It's not so bad. I am finding myself in the process. Maybe there is a reason all of this is happening right now. I can maturely enjoy my adult life...lol, nothing like tapping yourself on the back. One gain ... having a fabulous relationship with my son, my best friend. That's the greatest price I've ever received. I would never have known him like I do now. Our greatest connection, love for music.
So, yes, if music be our food of life play on. I can enjoy it with my son.
Thursday, November 04, 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
My goodness...39 years. I've wanted this for so long. I could taste it. And now it's here. Thank you Lord Jesus. This is the best gift you've given me. To be alive.
From the day I was diagnosed HIV positive I've been praying for long life. It's 12 years living with this disease. My prayer is changing. I'm begging for another year, the long and big 40. I know in my heart God will not play games with my feelings. I'm getting energy to fight harder. To enjoy fuller. To smile broader. This life is a blessing and I wanna shine like I've never shined before. I'm trully blessed to be still breathing. I'm blessed.
To have a friend like Jenny. Just had lunch and a beautiful gift. So many best wishes. I am loved. I know that. I'm mnotivated to live longer. I'm motivated to be happy, strong as so many look up to me.
Thank you Lord
From the day I was diagnosed HIV positive I've been praying for long life. It's 12 years living with this disease. My prayer is changing. I'm begging for another year, the long and big 40. I know in my heart God will not play games with my feelings. I'm getting energy to fight harder. To enjoy fuller. To smile broader. This life is a blessing and I wanna shine like I've never shined before. I'm trully blessed to be still breathing. I'm blessed.
To have a friend like Jenny. Just had lunch and a beautiful gift. So many best wishes. I am loved. I know that. I'm mnotivated to live longer. I'm motivated to be happy, strong as so many look up to me.
Thank you Lord
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